This past week was a very stressful and empty week. I'm not sure why but I just felt like crap and didn't care about much. Luckily that's over and today was pretty swell.
The past two sunday nights I've gone to Life Hurts, God Heals - which is like a youth group [theres many around the united states] and we talk about our feelings and relationship with God - It's a really chill place so, I like going.
Right now I'm mostly thinking about School - whether or not I wan't to transfer to Canebay next school year. Grades, because I've screwed off up until this semester. And of course college opportunities. I'm also thinking about getting a job... I'm hoping that the new chick fil a opening up by my house will hire me, so we'll see how that goes in late March, early April.
Check out Falling Up and Addison Road, two good, christian bands.
"Whatever is covered up will be uncovered, and every secret will be made known. So then, whatever you have in the dark will be heard in broad daylight." Luke 12:2-3
Monday, February 23, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I miss you love,
Artists I must advise you to listen to...
They aren't christian artists [because I find it quite hard to find folk/rock christian artists]
But:
Sia
Maria Mena
Carolina Liar
Kate Nash.
I adore them all.
And I advise everyone to watch Mamma Mia! I love it.
I'm making plans for the summer!
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Well - of course I'm going to be doing some field trip thing to become a jr. counselor for Camp Happy Days [a camp for kids with cancer and their siblings.]
And I just decided I'm going to become support staff at Camp Agape [Church of God of Prophecy camp] and maybe do it for one or two weeks... and also go to a week of camp for myself.
Doesn't that sound exciting? I've always wanted to be a counselor at Camp Happy Days, but since getting closer to God and everything I've wanted to be a counselor and stuff for Camp Agape, since I mostly give credit to the people there for my belief in God.
I don't have much more to say, lol. I just wanted to talk about my summer [:
[which is more than a few months away.]
They aren't christian artists [because I find it quite hard to find folk/rock christian artists]
But:
Sia
Maria Mena
Carolina Liar
Kate Nash.
I adore them all.
And I advise everyone to watch Mamma Mia! I love it.
I'm making plans for the summer!
[:
Well - of course I'm going to be doing some field trip thing to become a jr. counselor for Camp Happy Days [a camp for kids with cancer and their siblings.]
And I just decided I'm going to become support staff at Camp Agape [Church of God of Prophecy camp] and maybe do it for one or two weeks... and also go to a week of camp for myself.
Doesn't that sound exciting? I've always wanted to be a counselor at Camp Happy Days, but since getting closer to God and everything I've wanted to be a counselor and stuff for Camp Agape, since I mostly give credit to the people there for my belief in God.
I don't have much more to say, lol. I just wanted to talk about my summer [:
[which is more than a few months away.]
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Money, Money, Money
Must be funny in a rich mans world.
[Mamma Mia!] I adore it, haha.
Anyways.
Revival started wednesday.
Wednesday - Brother Looper talked about how you have to bring your family and friends to God, which really made me think of my brother. I know he's had a relationship with God at some point, but he's at the exact same place I was at his age. Not believing in God. I feel bad for him. I feel like crap because it's partly my fault, I was never a good example for my brother -- He doesn't really have a good example of a christian who doesn't fall into temptations constantly and refrains from cursing or physical acts of violence. Like... the only 'christians' he knows are people who claim to be christians, and though I am christian, and I'm trying, I'm just starting out and I just feel over whelmed. What am I supposed to do?
Thursday - Brother Looper was talking about many things. Mostly that most people who claim to be christians aren't. That most of the world will claim to believe in God but only believe in parts of his word, or only refrain from certain things. It made me think a lot, what about what I'm doing? No, I'm not out smoking weed or drinking, but I'm also not spending my time wisely and praying to God and reading the word every free moment I have. I'm watching pointless telivision thats just putting worse thoughts in my mind. I think I'm going to refrain from most of the tv shows I watch, which will be really hard for me,but he said "If you are in love with God, then you can give anything up for him." And it made me think, if I we're in love with a human, a boy, then I would spend all my time for and with him, but then I refuse to spend all my time on God? I love him more than anything. I do. Sometimes I question my belief and love. I don't think I can love to the extent of everyone else... but... I'm trying.
A lot of people don't realize what happened to me.
A lot of people that know about it, don't realize what affect it had on me.
I don't know.
I'm really worried about all the money I owe at GCHS for band fees. I almost wish I didn't join in the first place.
I'm really worried about my future, grades; classes; college; scholarships; ect.
I'm really worried.
I have a writers block.
I wish I had emotions lately.
I miss everyone.
[Mamma Mia!] I adore it, haha.
Anyways.
Revival started wednesday.
Wednesday - Brother Looper talked about how you have to bring your family and friends to God, which really made me think of my brother. I know he's had a relationship with God at some point, but he's at the exact same place I was at his age. Not believing in God. I feel bad for him. I feel like crap because it's partly my fault, I was never a good example for my brother -- He doesn't really have a good example of a christian who doesn't fall into temptations constantly and refrains from cursing or physical acts of violence. Like... the only 'christians' he knows are people who claim to be christians, and though I am christian, and I'm trying, I'm just starting out and I just feel over whelmed. What am I supposed to do?
Thursday - Brother Looper was talking about many things. Mostly that most people who claim to be christians aren't. That most of the world will claim to believe in God but only believe in parts of his word, or only refrain from certain things. It made me think a lot, what about what I'm doing? No, I'm not out smoking weed or drinking, but I'm also not spending my time wisely and praying to God and reading the word every free moment I have. I'm watching pointless telivision thats just putting worse thoughts in my mind. I think I'm going to refrain from most of the tv shows I watch, which will be really hard for me,but he said "If you are in love with God, then you can give anything up for him." And it made me think, if I we're in love with a human, a boy, then I would spend all my time for and with him, but then I refuse to spend all my time on God? I love him more than anything. I do. Sometimes I question my belief and love. I don't think I can love to the extent of everyone else... but... I'm trying.
A lot of people don't realize what happened to me.
A lot of people that know about it, don't realize what affect it had on me.
I don't know.
I'm really worried about all the money I owe at GCHS for band fees. I almost wish I didn't join in the first place.
I'm really worried about my future, grades; classes; college; scholarships; ect.
I'm really worried.
I have a writers block.
I wish I had emotions lately.
I miss everyone.
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