I just started a book called, Stiff by Mary Roach. It's about the life of a cadaver. It's really interesting and the title is something I quoted from the book. It's a bit amazing.
My day:
I was in a bad mood because I had to get up for school. [too early]
I was annoyed because stupid cheerleaders were singing one of my favorite songs by 3OH!3.
I was tardy for first period, but by choice. I walked around with Brittnay, so she could get breakfast.
I think I aced the spanish quiz, even though I didn't really study.
I had a lot of fun in Sociology because all we did was watch two episodes of CSI [:
I was tardy for third period because the walk to there is a million miles, and I had to pee.
I was bored in third period because it's way too easy, but obviously I need to get my act together.
I was extremely bored at lunch, but I found the book.
I was really nervous for the Geometry Test because I didn't have a calculator [she doesn't give them out unless we pay 3 bucks] but it ended up being pretty easy. Hopefully I passed with around a B.
Bus ride home was usual and boring.
Wen't out to eat with my family [: it was fun.
I was supposed to go to the movies with Barbra but instead she's just coming over for a few hours. which is alright. I'll just go to the movies some other time.
This week coming up is revival at my church. [Wed-Fri] and I'm excited because 1. I love revivals. and 2. Cat is singing a solo. So, hopefully all is well. :]
Friday, January 30, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
1 month [:
Its the 26th of January. :D
Which is the one month mark of my on-going rededication to Christ. I feel amazing.
I had a lovely day. Lets go through it, eh?
In the beginning of school I sat where I usually do in the main hall and read the bible...
I read Psalm 75 & 76, I believe. It helped my day start out pretty swell.
First period is Spanish, and I always get in a kind of moody mood [?] in that class. Just because the teacher is abnormally annoying, its spanish, and she was putting us in abc order so I had to sit by boring people... [no offense to them.] But that class always cracks me up and I actually am out spoken and have friends in there, which is nice. 'Awesome Possum' :]
After that class Danielle, Burtrene [sp], Brittney and I walked together. Which was weird, actually having people to walk with :] And Danielle now sits by me in Sociology which was lovely.
Danielle and I had a lovely conversation and though we ended up making fun of the girl in the back of the room who is more ignorant than the entire U.S. of A... it was lovely to have someone to talk to. It was also nice how I actually kind of talk to Chelsea and that kid over there > and feel like I'm not just some new girl. It was kool. [we discussed the war in Iraq]...
Third period is biology, which is just a 'hoot' haha. 'Don't Trip, Chocolate Chip!' :] Brittney and I make the most noise and laugh the most. Its fun. And we went outside for some measuring project/paper or whatever so it was fun to get up and do things. And then we talked to some guy who is a police cadet [which was interesting, and apparently brittney wants to be one too, so they talked about that] and he's actually in that show Army Wives [from lifetime] and he was killed 8 times in that show, he was an extra of something. But he could be lying, but I can't see why he would.
Fourth period which is Geometry, my hardest class, is always pretty boring. I didn't feel good when I got in there so I was surprised I did all my work. And I constantly surprise myself when I know algebra problems and stuff, lol. :] But I'm thankful I don't have friends in that class, because its hard enough to pay attention now.
I think I'll do fine in that class, though. As long as I keep doing my work.
I've been so great. I love God so much and am finding life so much better. I am a completly different person. I used to compare how much I wasn't myself once I left GCHS, but now I realize it was just a trip, a venture of God to change myself. To become myself. Now that I look to my past, I see that I wasn't really living, I mean, besides those moments that I was truly alive, I wasn't alive at all. I was dying and constantly depressed. And I'm not saying that now I'm all peachy and never in a bad mood, I'm just saying, when you see me, I'll be different. [In some ways, at least.]
I found a new radio station! 100.9 WAY-FM. I like it. It plays a lot of christian music, and its more of the kind I enjoy instead of that hokey pokey stuff.
Ezekiel 18:21-22 (New International Version)
21 "But if a wicked man turns away from all the sins he has committed and keeps all my decrees and does what is just and right, he will surely live; he will not die. 22 None of the offenses he has committed will be remembered against him. Because of the righteous things he has done, he will live.
Which is the one month mark of my on-going rededication to Christ. I feel amazing.
I had a lovely day. Lets go through it, eh?
In the beginning of school I sat where I usually do in the main hall and read the bible...
I read Psalm 75 & 76, I believe. It helped my day start out pretty swell.
First period is Spanish, and I always get in a kind of moody mood [?] in that class. Just because the teacher is abnormally annoying, its spanish, and she was putting us in abc order so I had to sit by boring people... [no offense to them.] But that class always cracks me up and I actually am out spoken and have friends in there, which is nice. 'Awesome Possum' :]
After that class Danielle, Burtrene [sp], Brittney and I walked together. Which was weird, actually having people to walk with :] And Danielle now sits by me in Sociology which was lovely.
Danielle and I had a lovely conversation and though we ended up making fun of the girl in the back of the room who is more ignorant than the entire U.S. of A... it was lovely to have someone to talk to. It was also nice how I actually kind of talk to Chelsea and that kid over there > and feel like I'm not just some new girl. It was kool. [we discussed the war in Iraq]...
Third period is biology, which is just a 'hoot' haha. 'Don't Trip, Chocolate Chip!' :] Brittney and I make the most noise and laugh the most. Its fun. And we went outside for some measuring project/paper or whatever so it was fun to get up and do things. And then we talked to some guy who is a police cadet [which was interesting, and apparently brittney wants to be one too, so they talked about that] and he's actually in that show Army Wives [from lifetime] and he was killed 8 times in that show, he was an extra of something. But he could be lying, but I can't see why he would.
Fourth period which is Geometry, my hardest class, is always pretty boring. I didn't feel good when I got in there so I was surprised I did all my work. And I constantly surprise myself when I know algebra problems and stuff, lol. :] But I'm thankful I don't have friends in that class, because its hard enough to pay attention now.
I think I'll do fine in that class, though. As long as I keep doing my work.
I've been so great. I love God so much and am finding life so much better. I am a completly different person. I used to compare how much I wasn't myself once I left GCHS, but now I realize it was just a trip, a venture of God to change myself. To become myself. Now that I look to my past, I see that I wasn't really living, I mean, besides those moments that I was truly alive, I wasn't alive at all. I was dying and constantly depressed. And I'm not saying that now I'm all peachy and never in a bad mood, I'm just saying, when you see me, I'll be different. [In some ways, at least.]
I found a new radio station! 100.9 WAY-FM. I like it. It plays a lot of christian music, and its more of the kind I enjoy instead of that hokey pokey stuff.
Ezekiel 18:21-22 (New International Version)
21 "But if a wicked man turns away from all the sins he has committed and keeps all my decrees and does what is just and right, he will surely live; he will not die. 22 None of the offenses he has committed will be remembered against him. Because of the righteous things he has done, he will live.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Just writing to say,
I actually had a good day.
I love God.
The future seems fairly bright.
How about yours?
I love God.
The future seems fairly bright.
How about yours?
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Revival tonight :]
I was freaking all day because I changed my song this morning to One Touch by Nicole C. Mullen instead. I practiced all day, and though I think my performance was less than spectacular, everyone else disagrees. I guess I kind of got lost in God for a lot of it and I also forgot some words because I was so nervous. I was sweating up the wazoo and twitching some. lol. But everyone said I did an amazing job, and were suprised by how talented I am. But my favorite comment was from the pastors wife at Summerville church, she told me that "I did an amazing job, to keep singing for Jesus, and that I was annointed." I wanted to hug her. Isn't that the best compliment in the world? Geez.
The night was lovely. Just... plain out lovely. I sat with Elizabeth [Pangalangan] and the rest of the youth. She is just amazing! I never really appreciated her the way I do now. 'Gossip' haha. And I met her boyfriend Taylor, and a nice girl Faith that goes to Stratford high. And also I saw Wesly :} which was nice.
The sermon was about Holiness and how we've been taking the pursuit of holiness out of things. Like, we forget that we can't be intament with God without being holy. We have to pursue holiness and to sin less and be more holy to be close to God. It was a pretty moving sermon and I loved the entire thing.
Going to that church tonight opened my eyes. I mean, I've been to Camp Agape so I'm used to praise and worship like that, but... I didn't really know people praised like that at churches, and according to Elizabeth its always like that. It was amazing to me. So, I'm praying that I can either go to that church because I feel so, invited, and loved, and I can feel Gods power there. Or... for God to just lead me in the direction he wants me to go... even if its staying where I'm at. I have to do something, I'm sick of not looking forward to church, and not having a youth group.
I'm so thankful for God. Really... he is beyond amazing and I just... am so consumed in his love.
I hope that I can get more intament with God. I hope that I can be more useful to him.
I don't know what I'm supposed to be used for, though others think its my voice... I'm not so sure.
I don't know.
But... God Bless, and thankyou for reading :]
The night was lovely. Just... plain out lovely. I sat with Elizabeth [Pangalangan] and the rest of the youth. She is just amazing! I never really appreciated her the way I do now. 'Gossip' haha. And I met her boyfriend Taylor, and a nice girl Faith that goes to Stratford high. And also I saw Wesly :} which was nice.
The sermon was about Holiness and how we've been taking the pursuit of holiness out of things. Like, we forget that we can't be intament with God without being holy. We have to pursue holiness and to sin less and be more holy to be close to God. It was a pretty moving sermon and I loved the entire thing.
Going to that church tonight opened my eyes. I mean, I've been to Camp Agape so I'm used to praise and worship like that, but... I didn't really know people praised like that at churches, and according to Elizabeth its always like that. It was amazing to me. So, I'm praying that I can either go to that church because I feel so, invited, and loved, and I can feel Gods power there. Or... for God to just lead me in the direction he wants me to go... even if its staying where I'm at. I have to do something, I'm sick of not looking forward to church, and not having a youth group.
I'm so thankful for God. Really... he is beyond amazing and I just... am so consumed in his love.
I hope that I can get more intament with God. I hope that I can be more useful to him.
I don't know what I'm supposed to be used for, though others think its my voice... I'm not so sure.
I don't know.
But... God Bless, and thankyou for reading :]
Friday, January 16, 2009
Long time no... Talk.
Blah.
I've been doing okay, nothing special has happened, but at the same time its been more than nothing.
I know that God has my best interest in mind, the bigger plan and everything. And to be quite honest thats what keeps me going, thats what I lean on when I'm worried.
My best friend and I made up which, I guess, was really the plan. I am more thankful for her company than I was before so, maybe, that was what I was supposed to learn, but I don't know.
I found the song I'm singing for the revival and I've practiced it some so far but I'm really worried that I'll end up bombing it. I mean, its a hard song to sing. And I guess I'm lacking the confidence to pull it off, so I just have to remember its about God and put some hope into it. You know?
I haven't read my bible much lately which I'm not proud of, but I'll deffinetly have to work on that more. I am however constantly praying and talking to God. I like that. Having someone to always talk to, someone who knows what your about to say before you do. Its lovely.
Second semester starts on tuesday which I'm excited for. I can't wait to have new classes and a new chance. I hope that I meet nice people since I don't have many friends at Stratford that would be nice. I really hope I can bring up my grades, get new friends, stay in contact with God, and continue my friendships with my old friends. I think its possible, especially with God. I think that he has been taking care of me for so long, with out me even knowing it. which, is beyond amazing. Which reminds me --- Go look at this skit/drama its pretty dandy and it reflects a lot of what I mean, God is there even when you don't realize it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7Bkr3wBXdU&feature=related
The quality isn't that great, and it starts out pretty slowly, but its amazing.
The fact that even when we think we're alone, that everything is going wrong, Gods there.
And he is helping us, we wouldn't be here without him, and everytime we think 'life sucks so much' and that 'it couldn't get any worse'... it could. Because daily he saves us.
It just, amazes me.
I don't know what I wan't to do with my life.
Beyond pretty much anything in my life, I love to write and create things. I would love to be a writer, I'm not thinking unrealistically and saying that 'I'll be a writer when I grow up'... because I know with todays economy thats pretty much, not happening. Not saying I'm going to let the economy control what I do in my life. I'm just saying, I wan't to be realistic for my future, I'm so afraid that I'll get out there and have absolutely no experience doing anything and I'll just crumble. I know God will take care of me, but I really can't help but having that fear. I also really enjoy teaching, but, It seems everyone is resorting to being teachers, and like, really? The only thing I'd be qualified to teach is English, though, that would be nice. I also really enjoy my religion, and God and everything, and I heard they have scholarships for that kind of thing, I would love to study stuff like that, and possibly beceome a youth pastor. But ... I guess it is all up to God and I just have to put faith in him, while at the same time working on myself and future too, in his image.
Well. I have nothing much to discuss, but I'll continue to keep you posted and hopefully I can write more often. :] thankyou for reading.
I've been doing okay, nothing special has happened, but at the same time its been more than nothing.
I know that God has my best interest in mind, the bigger plan and everything. And to be quite honest thats what keeps me going, thats what I lean on when I'm worried.
My best friend and I made up which, I guess, was really the plan. I am more thankful for her company than I was before so, maybe, that was what I was supposed to learn, but I don't know.
I found the song I'm singing for the revival and I've practiced it some so far but I'm really worried that I'll end up bombing it. I mean, its a hard song to sing. And I guess I'm lacking the confidence to pull it off, so I just have to remember its about God and put some hope into it. You know?
I haven't read my bible much lately which I'm not proud of, but I'll deffinetly have to work on that more. I am however constantly praying and talking to God. I like that. Having someone to always talk to, someone who knows what your about to say before you do. Its lovely.
Second semester starts on tuesday which I'm excited for. I can't wait to have new classes and a new chance. I hope that I meet nice people since I don't have many friends at Stratford that would be nice. I really hope I can bring up my grades, get new friends, stay in contact with God, and continue my friendships with my old friends. I think its possible, especially with God. I think that he has been taking care of me for so long, with out me even knowing it. which, is beyond amazing. Which reminds me --- Go look at this skit/drama its pretty dandy and it reflects a lot of what I mean, God is there even when you don't realize it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7Bkr3wBXdU&feature=related
The quality isn't that great, and it starts out pretty slowly, but its amazing.
The fact that even when we think we're alone, that everything is going wrong, Gods there.
And he is helping us, we wouldn't be here without him, and everytime we think 'life sucks so much' and that 'it couldn't get any worse'... it could. Because daily he saves us.
It just, amazes me.
I don't know what I wan't to do with my life.
Beyond pretty much anything in my life, I love to write and create things. I would love to be a writer, I'm not thinking unrealistically and saying that 'I'll be a writer when I grow up'... because I know with todays economy thats pretty much, not happening. Not saying I'm going to let the economy control what I do in my life. I'm just saying, I wan't to be realistic for my future, I'm so afraid that I'll get out there and have absolutely no experience doing anything and I'll just crumble. I know God will take care of me, but I really can't help but having that fear. I also really enjoy teaching, but, It seems everyone is resorting to being teachers, and like, really? The only thing I'd be qualified to teach is English, though, that would be nice. I also really enjoy my religion, and God and everything, and I heard they have scholarships for that kind of thing, I would love to study stuff like that, and possibly beceome a youth pastor. But ... I guess it is all up to God and I just have to put faith in him, while at the same time working on myself and future too, in his image.
Well. I have nothing much to discuss, but I'll continue to keep you posted and hopefully I can write more often. :] thankyou for reading.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
It's been too long.
Sorry I haven't written since the 8th but my life has been pretty blah.
I don't have much to say, though :/
Things that has happened since the 8th:
My 'best friend' Barbra and I 'broke up' on the twelth, which was hard at first but I got over it, esk. And I guess its all in the big plan. It hurt a lot at first though, so that was pretty tough.
I have a solo [Redeemer - Nicole C. Mullen] to sing for a revival of a bunch of churches that I'm singing on saturday, but I can't find the version I want so... we'll see.
First Semester finally ended! So, I'm excited for Second Semester to come on tuesday. [since we have a five day weekend :]
I went to a Camp Happy Days lock-in on saturday night at the ice palace and it was really fun and I became more of who I am today, stronger, and it showed me I didn't really need people to follow.
My chest pains are getting worse, so I'll probably go to the doctor sooner than later.
I think thats it.
God bless,
&& hopefully I can write more interesting blogs later.
I don't have much to say, though :/
Things that has happened since the 8th:
My 'best friend' Barbra and I 'broke up' on the twelth, which was hard at first but I got over it, esk. And I guess its all in the big plan. It hurt a lot at first though, so that was pretty tough.
I have a solo [Redeemer - Nicole C. Mullen] to sing for a revival of a bunch of churches that I'm singing on saturday, but I can't find the version I want so... we'll see.
First Semester finally ended! So, I'm excited for Second Semester to come on tuesday. [since we have a five day weekend :]
I went to a Camp Happy Days lock-in on saturday night at the ice palace and it was really fun and I became more of who I am today, stronger, and it showed me I didn't really need people to follow.
My chest pains are getting worse, so I'll probably go to the doctor sooner than later.
I think thats it.
God bless,
&& hopefully I can write more interesting blogs later.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
BLAHHH.
I've slacked off, I'm sorry :/
Though... no one really cares. lol. oh well.
Anyways...
This week has been rough. I haven't had any sleep, like, at all. Except for the moments I have when I get home, which don't help, since when I wake up I end up staying up all night. I hate this right now. I'm really like... anxious. Weird huh? I don't know.
I haven't read the bible much.
I haven't prayed much.
My brain is dead.
I'm sure I'm just having a bad week or two... I'm fine, though, in my faith. I know Gods here for me and that I should be giving more but I'm just too tired and when I am praying and reading I just feel like I'm not really there anyways, so... I know this all will get better.
Schools okay. Especially since its the last few days of first semester. I'm excited for next semester, but it also makes me feel awkward and anxious.
I'm sad that everyones pretty much moving on with out me, but I guess like I always said, I'm the one that was most dedicated and apparently not there.
Whatever.
I'm too tired to be in a good mood.
I'll write later and hopefully will be rested up enough to have compassion or give a crap.
ttyl.
Though... no one really cares. lol. oh well.
Anyways...
This week has been rough. I haven't had any sleep, like, at all. Except for the moments I have when I get home, which don't help, since when I wake up I end up staying up all night. I hate this right now. I'm really like... anxious. Weird huh? I don't know.
I haven't read the bible much.
I haven't prayed much.
My brain is dead.
I'm sure I'm just having a bad week or two... I'm fine, though, in my faith. I know Gods here for me and that I should be giving more but I'm just too tired and when I am praying and reading I just feel like I'm not really there anyways, so... I know this all will get better.
Schools okay. Especially since its the last few days of first semester. I'm excited for next semester, but it also makes me feel awkward and anxious.
I'm sad that everyones pretty much moving on with out me, but I guess like I always said, I'm the one that was most dedicated and apparently not there.
Whatever.
I'm too tired to be in a good mood.
I'll write later and hopefully will be rested up enough to have compassion or give a crap.
ttyl.
Monday, January 5, 2009
The Fifth. [First day back]
Last night I couldn't sleep at all, it was almost as bad as getting excited for camp or the first day of school, but not really excitment, but... anticipation. I knew I wasn't prepared to come back and as I was lying there I kept thinking of all the things I had to have prepared for the next day. Then I also had to write myself a small note to put by my alarm clock to remind myself I was beautiful and that God loves me. [Sometimes I have to write myself things like this so I'll get out of bed, lol.] Which, it would have been nice if I didn't want to stab myself repeatedly in the face with a spork. I had gotten about an hour of sleep, due to my anticipation, plus my sleeping schedule was dramatically different during break and I'm still paying for it.
This morning after I got ready I went to school and in first period I spent my time in the library doing definitions for second period English. Afterwards I still had about 45 minutes so I found a book called Just Ask by Melody Carlson... but I'll get to that later. Second period was alright but as soon as we got in there the teacher was talking about some paper we apparently wrote before break that I couldn't recall that we had to do revisions on because apparently we sucked so much we deserved the chance to higher our grades. I have noticed that I get like 100's on my content but like 50's on my format. I didn't know MLA and it took up until today to tell her this, which is probably two papers too late, but... I've always had problems asking for help. Always. I'm like a dude who won't ask for directions. >.> By third period I was pretty worn out and feeling pretty lame... but while in there I started really getting into Just Ask and that was nice. On the way to fourth period I usually see this guy who is in my second period class, he always sees me while we pass in the hallway, and I see him, but I always look the other way, because, well, thats what I do. I usually don't look people in the eyes. But today for some reason I really wanted to see him. I wanted to smile at him. Its not that I like him, because I don't. I don't even know him. But for the two months I've been here I've noticed how nice he is, or how he looks at me, and I kind of wanted him to just say hello sometime, but he hasn't... which is just as much my fault as his. Well, I didn't see him. But it didn't bum me at all, I was so rejoiced that I noticed my own change in personality. As soon as I got here I wrote everyone off. I said, "These people are all morons. Their all preppier, more stupid, and rich than anyone I know. None of them have brain cells that work.." so on. But what I realized today was that after accepting God back into my life I also got my light back. That infectious smile. That feeling that someone could punch you in the face and then you'd smile at them and say, "Anything else?" and not mean it in a sarcastic way. In fourth period I was in a pretty good mood, but once my teacher was doing recommendations for next year science classes she recommended me for Physical science... which I failed last year. But I almost had a heart attack and explained to her I'm supposed to take credit recovery for that next semester... which isn't a total lie. But for the last 30 mins of class I was bummed and ready to get out of there, but it just seemed to get worse as I got more tired from only having one hour of sleep to getting sick on the bus ride home.
I took a nap from about 4-7 this afternoon, which won't help my sleeping schedule at all, obviously. I watched television for a few hours then finished Just Ask.
Just Ask.
"... I remembered how I gave my heart to God back in the fifth grade, or at least I prayed a prayer like that during Sunday school. To be honest, I'm not so sure that it took, at least as far as I was concerned. And I got to thinking that e ven though I didn't really understand what I was getting into back then, and even though I never took it seriously, god must've been just waiting for me to remember what I'd promised, He must've known that I would one day come back to Him."
I think this is a lot of the feelings I have. I gave my life to God sometime between 9 and 11, I remember the exact moment, because I asked my mom how to and I did it in my kitchen of my old house. I just don't remember how old I was. but... I think that over the years I was just running away from him, finding my way, my path. I know it sounds silly... how I had to run off from God, but if you know me, you know its not unlike me to give up on people or quit things. I quit God more than anything else, ever. But it took me quitting most things I've ever done to realize that I can quit drama club, but they won't just take me back and pretend I wasn't reliable. I could quit band, but it didn't mean I wouldn't forget everything and be pointless to them. I could quit chorus, but that didn't mean that the choir teacher wouldn't like the girl who'd been in there all 3 years. But, everytime I quit on God, I could come back, ask for forgiveness, and get it. God is always there for me which is lovely. no.. Its amazing. Its beyond belief. I know that I'm a stronger person for coming back after running away so many times. I'm not saying that I'm stronger than those who never ran, because at least they had the strength to stay. I'm just saying that I regret nothing. Every mistake, choice, confusion, and heart break was worth it. And its helping me get to what I am now.
I am Kristina [Shanelle] Lynne Moffitt.
I am a sixteen yearold virgin. who has never dated a guy.
I am a christian girl whos just finding her way.
I am a sophomore at Stratford high who is flunking biology.
I look in the mirror sometimes and see an ugly girl,
and the next moment I see the most amazing girl in the room.
I lie. I've cheated. I've stolen.
&& I'll probably do it all over again.
But by Gods grace I'm forgiven for anything and everything I am, or not.
I am a beautiful, loved, respected, christian girl.
I don't know where I'm going but I do put all of my hope and trust in God.
I know I still have to work for it and work on myself as I go but I also know that God has a plan for all of us and I'm not anywhere near the best time of my life. I'm finally thankful to be alive and its all because of God. I'm not sure how to be the best person I can be, or the best christian, but I'm working on it.
I love God.
"... Maybe that's what God is up to right now - changing me. Or maybe that's the only part of this big picture thing that I actually have any control over. Meaning I can control my own choices - like whether I choose to walk in faith or I choose to walk in fear. I'd rather walk in faith. ... I can at least give it my best shot."
I'm sick of running. I'm glad that since December 26th, 2008 I've decided to stop running. Completely and utterly I give myself to God. I'm still going to fail and suck at times. I'm still going to hate my appearance at time. I'll always be tempted by sex, drugs, lying, and otehr sins. because thats why there temptations, they tempt us. But I'm excited to say that I'm a clean-cut christian kidd. I'm glad to say that I'm not going to just date anyone. I'm finally letting myself feel better about every situation I'm in.
I've always had standards, so I never dated just anyone. I'm not saying guys we're fighting to get to my door, because in my life I've hardly heard my door knocking, but to be honest I've hardly actually answered the door anyways, so why would anyone knock? ... if that can be understood. I'm prepared to live my life for God, and not only do I have my old standards, I have new ones. I know I won't get some perfect guy. I'm not even looking. I know that God is taking me places... and when I'm ready, or when its supposed to happen, it will - through God. Right now in my life all I'm worried about is learning more about God, praying, trusting, more in God, and just overall improving my life for the better.
I'm just, so happy. Finally.
It just all, finally, makes so much sense. The pain, everything.
I know its all been worth it and I'm so thankful that Jesus died on the cross for me. That God is there for me. That God is there for all of us.
John 12:44-47 (NIV)
44Then Jesus cried out, "When a man believes in me, he does not believe in me only, but in the one who sent me. 45When he looks at me, he sees the one who sent me. 46I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.
47"As for the person who hears my words but does not keep them, I do not judge him. For I did not come to judge the world, but to save it.
Thank you for reading,
Kristina.
This morning after I got ready I went to school and in first period I spent my time in the library doing definitions for second period English. Afterwards I still had about 45 minutes so I found a book called Just Ask by Melody Carlson... but I'll get to that later. Second period was alright but as soon as we got in there the teacher was talking about some paper we apparently wrote before break that I couldn't recall that we had to do revisions on because apparently we sucked so much we deserved the chance to higher our grades. I have noticed that I get like 100's on my content but like 50's on my format. I didn't know MLA and it took up until today to tell her this, which is probably two papers too late, but... I've always had problems asking for help. Always. I'm like a dude who won't ask for directions. >.> By third period I was pretty worn out and feeling pretty lame... but while in there I started really getting into Just Ask and that was nice. On the way to fourth period I usually see this guy who is in my second period class, he always sees me while we pass in the hallway, and I see him, but I always look the other way, because, well, thats what I do. I usually don't look people in the eyes. But today for some reason I really wanted to see him. I wanted to smile at him. Its not that I like him, because I don't. I don't even know him. But for the two months I've been here I've noticed how nice he is, or how he looks at me, and I kind of wanted him to just say hello sometime, but he hasn't... which is just as much my fault as his. Well, I didn't see him. But it didn't bum me at all, I was so rejoiced that I noticed my own change in personality. As soon as I got here I wrote everyone off. I said, "These people are all morons. Their all preppier, more stupid, and rich than anyone I know. None of them have brain cells that work.." so on. But what I realized today was that after accepting God back into my life I also got my light back. That infectious smile. That feeling that someone could punch you in the face and then you'd smile at them and say, "Anything else?" and not mean it in a sarcastic way. In fourth period I was in a pretty good mood, but once my teacher was doing recommendations for next year science classes she recommended me for Physical science... which I failed last year. But I almost had a heart attack and explained to her I'm supposed to take credit recovery for that next semester... which isn't a total lie. But for the last 30 mins of class I was bummed and ready to get out of there, but it just seemed to get worse as I got more tired from only having one hour of sleep to getting sick on the bus ride home.
I took a nap from about 4-7 this afternoon, which won't help my sleeping schedule at all, obviously. I watched television for a few hours then finished Just Ask.
Just Ask.
"... I remembered how I gave my heart to God back in the fifth grade, or at least I prayed a prayer like that during Sunday school. To be honest, I'm not so sure that it took, at least as far as I was concerned. And I got to thinking that e ven though I didn't really understand what I was getting into back then, and even though I never took it seriously, god must've been just waiting for me to remember what I'd promised, He must've known that I would one day come back to Him."
I think this is a lot of the feelings I have. I gave my life to God sometime between 9 and 11, I remember the exact moment, because I asked my mom how to and I did it in my kitchen of my old house. I just don't remember how old I was. but... I think that over the years I was just running away from him, finding my way, my path. I know it sounds silly... how I had to run off from God, but if you know me, you know its not unlike me to give up on people or quit things. I quit God more than anything else, ever. But it took me quitting most things I've ever done to realize that I can quit drama club, but they won't just take me back and pretend I wasn't reliable. I could quit band, but it didn't mean I wouldn't forget everything and be pointless to them. I could quit chorus, but that didn't mean that the choir teacher wouldn't like the girl who'd been in there all 3 years. But, everytime I quit on God, I could come back, ask for forgiveness, and get it. God is always there for me which is lovely. no.. Its amazing. Its beyond belief. I know that I'm a stronger person for coming back after running away so many times. I'm not saying that I'm stronger than those who never ran, because at least they had the strength to stay. I'm just saying that I regret nothing. Every mistake, choice, confusion, and heart break was worth it. And its helping me get to what I am now.
I am Kristina [Shanelle] Lynne Moffitt.
I am a sixteen yearold virgin. who has never dated a guy.
I am a christian girl whos just finding her way.
I am a sophomore at Stratford high who is flunking biology.
I look in the mirror sometimes and see an ugly girl,
and the next moment I see the most amazing girl in the room.
I lie. I've cheated. I've stolen.
&& I'll probably do it all over again.
But by Gods grace I'm forgiven for anything and everything I am, or not.
I am a beautiful, loved, respected, christian girl.
I don't know where I'm going but I do put all of my hope and trust in God.
I know I still have to work for it and work on myself as I go but I also know that God has a plan for all of us and I'm not anywhere near the best time of my life. I'm finally thankful to be alive and its all because of God. I'm not sure how to be the best person I can be, or the best christian, but I'm working on it.
I love God.
"... Maybe that's what God is up to right now - changing me. Or maybe that's the only part of this big picture thing that I actually have any control over. Meaning I can control my own choices - like whether I choose to walk in faith or I choose to walk in fear. I'd rather walk in faith. ... I can at least give it my best shot."
I'm sick of running. I'm glad that since December 26th, 2008 I've decided to stop running. Completely and utterly I give myself to God. I'm still going to fail and suck at times. I'm still going to hate my appearance at time. I'll always be tempted by sex, drugs, lying, and otehr sins. because thats why there temptations, they tempt us. But I'm excited to say that I'm a clean-cut christian kidd. I'm glad to say that I'm not going to just date anyone. I'm finally letting myself feel better about every situation I'm in.
I've always had standards, so I never dated just anyone. I'm not saying guys we're fighting to get to my door, because in my life I've hardly heard my door knocking, but to be honest I've hardly actually answered the door anyways, so why would anyone knock? ... if that can be understood. I'm prepared to live my life for God, and not only do I have my old standards, I have new ones. I know I won't get some perfect guy. I'm not even looking. I know that God is taking me places... and when I'm ready, or when its supposed to happen, it will - through God. Right now in my life all I'm worried about is learning more about God, praying, trusting, more in God, and just overall improving my life for the better.
I'm just, so happy. Finally.
It just all, finally, makes so much sense. The pain, everything.
I know its all been worth it and I'm so thankful that Jesus died on the cross for me. That God is there for me. That God is there for all of us.
John 12:44-47 (NIV)
44Then Jesus cried out, "When a man believes in me, he does not believe in me only, but in the one who sent me. 45When he looks at me, he sees the one who sent me. 46I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.
47"As for the person who hears my words but does not keep them, I do not judge him. For I did not come to judge the world, but to save it.
Thank you for reading,
Kristina.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
The Fourth.
My day was alright.
I was too tired before church, but after being there for a few minutes and drinking a Mountain Dew I was wide awake. I really enjoy the people from my church... even though theres no youth exactly, I can't imagine a place I feel more at home.
Church was okay, we sang songs we always do, over and over again. I was lead singer today, for the second week in a row - which was nice. But the lead singer is coming back next week, which is relieving because being the lead singer is stressful because you have to, lead. lol. The sermon was alright, it was hard to stay awake like usual, but I got a lovely verse from it.
1 Thessalonians 5:4-11 (NIV)
4But you, brothers, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. 5You are all sons of the light and sons of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. 6So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled. 7For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night. 8But since we belong to the day, let us be self-controlled, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. 9For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
The only verse the pastor actually quoted was 1 Thessalonians 5:5... and so I investigated all the verses...
After church today I went home and watched The Secret Life of the American Teenager, which I adore even though it kind of sucks. After that I went to Chelseas church youth group. I was very very shy at first. But since they we're just working on their drama it was pretty easy going. I enjoyed it a lot actually, I think I'm going to go back now. :] The people were just lovely. And Chelsea has amazing talents. [I miss doing drama skits at my church...]
I didn't read the bible much today, since I was in church the entire time, lol. But I do plan on reading it after I get off, it always helps me get at peace and ready for the next day, which I'll deffinetly need since tomorrow is the first day back in two weeks. I can't believe I'm supposed to go back to school... I don't want to, at all. But I'm more prepared than ever, spiritually. I'm just ready for this semester to be over with, because this week is almost pointless to me. I'm sure I'll fail Biology and probably get a C in EnglishIII, since I'm like, failing english at my new school. I'm really looking forward to the new semester and the new chances. I'm sure that when the change comes I'll be able to take ahold of that.
I'll tell you all what verses I read tonight, tomorrow!
I hope you all have a wonderful first day back, and I'll talk to you later. :]
I was too tired before church, but after being there for a few minutes and drinking a Mountain Dew I was wide awake. I really enjoy the people from my church... even though theres no youth exactly, I can't imagine a place I feel more at home.
Church was okay, we sang songs we always do, over and over again. I was lead singer today, for the second week in a row - which was nice. But the lead singer is coming back next week, which is relieving because being the lead singer is stressful because you have to, lead. lol. The sermon was alright, it was hard to stay awake like usual, but I got a lovely verse from it.
1 Thessalonians 5:4-11 (NIV)
4But you, brothers, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. 5You are all sons of the light and sons of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. 6So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled. 7For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night. 8But since we belong to the day, let us be self-controlled, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. 9For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
The only verse the pastor actually quoted was 1 Thessalonians 5:5... and so I investigated all the verses...
After church today I went home and watched The Secret Life of the American Teenager, which I adore even though it kind of sucks. After that I went to Chelseas church youth group. I was very very shy at first. But since they we're just working on their drama it was pretty easy going. I enjoyed it a lot actually, I think I'm going to go back now. :] The people were just lovely. And Chelsea has amazing talents. [I miss doing drama skits at my church...]
I didn't read the bible much today, since I was in church the entire time, lol. But I do plan on reading it after I get off, it always helps me get at peace and ready for the next day, which I'll deffinetly need since tomorrow is the first day back in two weeks. I can't believe I'm supposed to go back to school... I don't want to, at all. But I'm more prepared than ever, spiritually. I'm just ready for this semester to be over with, because this week is almost pointless to me. I'm sure I'll fail Biology and probably get a C in EnglishIII, since I'm like, failing english at my new school. I'm really looking forward to the new semester and the new chances. I'm sure that when the change comes I'll be able to take ahold of that.
I'll tell you all what verses I read tonight, tomorrow!
I hope you all have a wonderful first day back, and I'll talk to you later. :]
Saturday, January 3, 2009
The Third.
Last night after I got off the computer I was feeling really weird. I was sad because of the position I'm in due to my change in lifestyle... and I also was needing Gods guidence. I read Psalms 36-42 last night and the verses I liked most were,
Psalm 37:23-24 (NIV)
23 If the LORD delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm;
24 though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.
Psalm 38:17-22 (NIV)
17 For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me.
18 I confess my iniquity; I am troubled by my sin.
19 Many are those who are my vigorous enemies; those who hate me without reason are numerous.
20 Those who repay my good with evil slander me when I pursue what is good.
21 O LORD, do not forsake me; be not far from me, O my God.
22 Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior.
I also recommend Psalm 46 and Psalm 49.
Psalm 49:20 (NIV)
20 A man who has riches without understanding is like the beasts that perish.
And today I read up to 51 of Psalms. But I only particularly like this verse,
Psalm 51:10 (NIV)
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
After having a rough night last night I did find solace in God, like always. But for the second night in a row I had too much pain in my legs to fall asleep for a while. I woke up around 11 this morning and didn't feel like doing crap, which is why I spent the majority of my day lying in my bed watching pointless tv and movies. I felt very worn out all day, like the world was getting to me. So, it felt relieving to just get away from the world and just sit with myself.
My struggles today we're a lot of the same: my thoughts towards others, the things I watch, over eating, doubts about the future.
I love God so much and daily my love for him grows. I know that I could never love him like he loves me... I know I'll never be as amazing as he is... but I hope to keep trying, and to get closer to him.
I'm excited for tomorrow which is a sunday. I get to go to church at Grace Fellowship but then later on I get to visit my friends church, so hopefully everything works out. :] And of course school starts monday.
Psalm 37:23-24 (NIV)
23 If the LORD delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm;
24 though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.
Psalm 38:17-22 (NIV)
17 For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me.
18 I confess my iniquity; I am troubled by my sin.
19 Many are those who are my vigorous enemies; those who hate me without reason are numerous.
20 Those who repay my good with evil slander me when I pursue what is good.
21 O LORD, do not forsake me; be not far from me, O my God.
22 Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior.
I also recommend Psalm 46 and Psalm 49.
Psalm 49:20 (NIV)
20 A man who has riches without understanding is like the beasts that perish.
And today I read up to 51 of Psalms. But I only particularly like this verse,
Psalm 51:10 (NIV)
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
After having a rough night last night I did find solace in God, like always. But for the second night in a row I had too much pain in my legs to fall asleep for a while. I woke up around 11 this morning and didn't feel like doing crap, which is why I spent the majority of my day lying in my bed watching pointless tv and movies. I felt very worn out all day, like the world was getting to me. So, it felt relieving to just get away from the world and just sit with myself.
My struggles today we're a lot of the same: my thoughts towards others, the things I watch, over eating, doubts about the future.
I love God so much and daily my love for him grows. I know that I could never love him like he loves me... I know I'll never be as amazing as he is... but I hope to keep trying, and to get closer to him.
I'm excited for tomorrow which is a sunday. I get to go to church at Grace Fellowship but then later on I get to visit my friends church, so hopefully everything works out. :] And of course school starts monday.
Friday, January 2, 2009
The Second.
I woke up around 12 this afternoon which was kind of annoying since I was hoping to wake up earlier so I could go geocaching with my parents, but I got over it. I ended up spending my day cleaning my room, watching old family videos, and on myspace of course. It was a really laid back day, but I had a lot of things on my mind.
I'm afraid that I'll have to give up some of my non-christian friends, not because I want to, or because its neccessarily my choice. I mostly think their putting pressure on me like all of them before have done, to stay the same. I love my friends, I do. But like I've stated before, God is my number one. And in a lot of ways my christian friends are closer to me too, because we have a spiritual bond. I hate how a lot of people can't understand that... the spiritual bond. I'm starting to get closer to some good christian chicks like Danielle and Emily [a long with Brittany and Jenny<3] and I wan't to grow in Christ with them. A lot of people don't understand this because I've never been particularly close to either of them, in fact, a while back I didn't get a long with Emily at all, for many reasons. People change and through God I see beautiful things in both of them and I see that we can all grow and help eachother grow together.
Everytime someones rude to me or gets me angry I have to hold myself back so much... like I have to control my mind from going to that evil place and I have to hold my tongue from using such rude language. And I'm doing an okay job, but I just, hope I can continue to grow and hopefully one day I won't have to hold my tongue. Hopefully one day my mind is just, a peaceful setting. :]
I also have to work on judging people. I'm very judgemental of people by first glance... and its just negative thoughts. I need to start respecting peoples choices and also seeing everyones beauty.
I read the bible for discipleship... the verse that stood out to me the most was: Luke 14:33. "In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple."
Which reminded me of the sacrifices that I have to make as a christian.
First of all I may have to limit my time with those who refuse/bash/disagree with my christianity. So that I can stay strong in my faith. Which also reminds me of that saying "bird of a feather, flock together" which is very true. If I hang out with a bunch of druggies, I'll be a druggie. If I hang out with a bunch of drunks, I'll drink. And If I hang out with a bunch of non-believers, I won't believe.
Thinking back to my adventure to where I'm at now... I realize how different i've become. The hardest part for me to think back to is the fact that when I was at Christian camp I had no clue how much I had to give up to follow God. I had no clue... but they told us, over and over again how we would have to change our lives, give up our lives to be with Christ, because only with Christ could we have our lives. isn't that amazing? We get life through Christ. blah. I never truly had life with out him, I know that now. :]
Another time in my life that saddens me is the fact that I had/have no relationship with my father... or mother. Now that I think about it my father always says, "You can't have a real relationship with anyone if you don't have one with your dad. If you don't have one with me." I don't think he was exactly right, though. I think I was unable to have relationships with people because I was running away from a relatinship with God. My father. I know I need a relationship with my earthly father and my mother... but I could never have had a real, loving, relationship without God. He has transformed me. I hope that through God I will be able to gain relationships with my parents and also those around me. I also hope that God gives me the strength to not be so shy and awkward around new groups of people. I always seem to be running from change and life. But I hope that God brings me to them. :]
Overall I'm going to pray for:
People and their jobs, I know its a really hard time.
Getting a job, myself.
All my friends from church camp and their struggles.
All the people from church.
Wesley and his mother.
Danielle and her faith.
Emily and her faith.
Shawn and his faith.
For my friends who aren't sure of their faith, or what to believe.
For those lost.
For my younger brother, because he doesnt' believe.
For those at war.
Those who have it tough.
Generally Everyone.
I just hope that you are all blessed. :]
I hope that I can rely on the bible and stay strong through Christ. I'm excited for this year and I know there will be a lot of struggles but, I can make it with God.
I'm afraid that I'll have to give up some of my non-christian friends, not because I want to, or because its neccessarily my choice. I mostly think their putting pressure on me like all of them before have done, to stay the same. I love my friends, I do. But like I've stated before, God is my number one. And in a lot of ways my christian friends are closer to me too, because we have a spiritual bond. I hate how a lot of people can't understand that... the spiritual bond. I'm starting to get closer to some good christian chicks like Danielle and Emily [a long with Brittany and Jenny<3] and I wan't to grow in Christ with them. A lot of people don't understand this because I've never been particularly close to either of them, in fact, a while back I didn't get a long with Emily at all, for many reasons. People change and through God I see beautiful things in both of them and I see that we can all grow and help eachother grow together.
Everytime someones rude to me or gets me angry I have to hold myself back so much... like I have to control my mind from going to that evil place and I have to hold my tongue from using such rude language. And I'm doing an okay job, but I just, hope I can continue to grow and hopefully one day I won't have to hold my tongue. Hopefully one day my mind is just, a peaceful setting. :]
I also have to work on judging people. I'm very judgemental of people by first glance... and its just negative thoughts. I need to start respecting peoples choices and also seeing everyones beauty.
I read the bible for discipleship... the verse that stood out to me the most was: Luke 14:33. "In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple."
Which reminded me of the sacrifices that I have to make as a christian.
First of all I may have to limit my time with those who refuse/bash/disagree with my christianity. So that I can stay strong in my faith. Which also reminds me of that saying "bird of a feather, flock together" which is very true. If I hang out with a bunch of druggies, I'll be a druggie. If I hang out with a bunch of drunks, I'll drink. And If I hang out with a bunch of non-believers, I won't believe.
Thinking back to my adventure to where I'm at now... I realize how different i've become. The hardest part for me to think back to is the fact that when I was at Christian camp I had no clue how much I had to give up to follow God. I had no clue... but they told us, over and over again how we would have to change our lives, give up our lives to be with Christ, because only with Christ could we have our lives. isn't that amazing? We get life through Christ. blah. I never truly had life with out him, I know that now. :]
Another time in my life that saddens me is the fact that I had/have no relationship with my father... or mother. Now that I think about it my father always says, "You can't have a real relationship with anyone if you don't have one with your dad. If you don't have one with me." I don't think he was exactly right, though. I think I was unable to have relationships with people because I was running away from a relatinship with God. My father. I know I need a relationship with my earthly father and my mother... but I could never have had a real, loving, relationship without God. He has transformed me. I hope that through God I will be able to gain relationships with my parents and also those around me. I also hope that God gives me the strength to not be so shy and awkward around new groups of people. I always seem to be running from change and life. But I hope that God brings me to them. :]
Overall I'm going to pray for:
People and their jobs, I know its a really hard time.
Getting a job, myself.
All my friends from church camp and their struggles.
All the people from church.
Wesley and his mother.
Danielle and her faith.
Emily and her faith.
Shawn and his faith.
For my friends who aren't sure of their faith, or what to believe.
For those lost.
For my younger brother, because he doesnt' believe.
For those at war.
Those who have it tough.
Generally Everyone.
I just hope that you are all blessed. :]
I hope that I can rely on the bible and stay strong through Christ. I'm excited for this year and I know there will be a lot of struggles but, I can make it with God.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Good Morning '09 :]
I brought in the new year with my best friend Barbra and Shelby! It was generally a good time. I was really thankful not to bring in another year alone in my bedroom watching tv. So, in some ways it was good way to start the new year but in others it was pretty lame. Laughing out loud. [or should I just say Lol... which is less lame?]
My friend Danielle also created a blog to embark on her new adventure and love for God, so if anyone actually ends up reading this I'm following her. So, yeah. :]
I wish that my first day of blogging for the year was interesting and had depth, but I can almost promise it won't. I stayed up until 6 this morning with Barbra watching a tv show on the History channel about gluttony and played Sims 2 which is amazingly fun. :] We passed out around 6 and I ended up waking up around 1. I left her house by 2:30 and got home. And wen't back to sleep, lol. I slept til 7 and then just sat around watching tv until 10:30. So, obviously my day was very boring... but I do have things to talk about, I mean, Its New Years Day!
A big part of me isn't looking forward to this year because every year has been the same for me. They all have pretty much sucked and just because it's a 'new year' not much changes. I still have to go back to school and to the same semester/classes. But this year seems different for me in many ways, for one I am following God and am much happier. I feel blessed for my life and want to follow God the best I can. I know that this year will be different because I plan on changing lives, I really and truly do. But I guess for this year to be different I must have plans and goals, because I never have before. So, my new years resolution will consume of multiple things:
1. Stay, follow, and strengthen my relationship with God.
2. Strengthen my relationships with other Christians.
3. Enjoy life.
4. Get good grades for my second semester of sophomore year.
5. Get good grades for my first semester of junior year.
6. Become a Jr. Counselor for Camp Happy Days.
7. Continue reading the bible daily and talking to God.
8. Help those around me to come to God.
9. Let others see the difference in me through God.
10. Learn not only how to love God but myself and those around me.
So, those are some of my plans for the new year. I'm really excited to get things started.
Last night when I was out with some of my friends I realized the language around those I hangout with use, I never noticed how much cursing went on, lol, but now that I'm trying to work on myself I notice it a lot.
Also last night I noticed my strengths and weaknesses.
Strengths:
1. I would never be tempted by Alcohol or Drugs.
2. I won't denounce God, even if others around me will.
Weaknesses:
1. My friends making fun of my new choice in friends.
2. The worlds quite enticing. And the thought of living completely free of responsibilities and life obligations sound nice.
1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?"
2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' "
4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."
6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. 7 Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.
I'm sorry my blog sucked so much today, but its in the middle of the night and I'm not putting two and two together. I'm sure they will become a lot more interesting monday, once I get back to school and a normal sleeping schedule and life. :] Thank you if you read. :]
My friend Danielle also created a blog to embark on her new adventure and love for God, so if anyone actually ends up reading this I'm following her. So, yeah. :]
I wish that my first day of blogging for the year was interesting and had depth, but I can almost promise it won't. I stayed up until 6 this morning with Barbra watching a tv show on the History channel about gluttony and played Sims 2 which is amazingly fun. :] We passed out around 6 and I ended up waking up around 1. I left her house by 2:30 and got home. And wen't back to sleep, lol. I slept til 7 and then just sat around watching tv until 10:30. So, obviously my day was very boring... but I do have things to talk about, I mean, Its New Years Day!
A big part of me isn't looking forward to this year because every year has been the same for me. They all have pretty much sucked and just because it's a 'new year' not much changes. I still have to go back to school and to the same semester/classes. But this year seems different for me in many ways, for one I am following God and am much happier. I feel blessed for my life and want to follow God the best I can. I know that this year will be different because I plan on changing lives, I really and truly do. But I guess for this year to be different I must have plans and goals, because I never have before. So, my new years resolution will consume of multiple things:
1. Stay, follow, and strengthen my relationship with God.
2. Strengthen my relationships with other Christians.
3. Enjoy life.
4. Get good grades for my second semester of sophomore year.
5. Get good grades for my first semester of junior year.
6. Become a Jr. Counselor for Camp Happy Days.
7. Continue reading the bible daily and talking to God.
8. Help those around me to come to God.
9. Let others see the difference in me through God.
10. Learn not only how to love God but myself and those around me.
So, those are some of my plans for the new year. I'm really excited to get things started.
Last night when I was out with some of my friends I realized the language around those I hangout with use, I never noticed how much cursing went on, lol, but now that I'm trying to work on myself I notice it a lot.
Also last night I noticed my strengths and weaknesses.
Strengths:
1. I would never be tempted by Alcohol or Drugs.
2. I won't denounce God, even if others around me will.
Weaknesses:
1. My friends making fun of my new choice in friends.
2. The worlds quite enticing. And the thought of living completely free of responsibilities and life obligations sound nice.
1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?"
2 The woman said to the serpent, "We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, 3 but God did say, 'You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.' "
4 "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman. 5 "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."
6 When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. 7 Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.
I'm sorry my blog sucked so much today, but its in the middle of the night and I'm not putting two and two together. I'm sure they will become a lot more interesting monday, once I get back to school and a normal sleeping schedule and life. :] Thank you if you read. :]
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