Long time no... Talk.

Blah.

I've been doing okay, nothing special has happened, but at the same time its been more than nothing.

I know that God has my best interest in mind, the bigger plan and everything. And to be quite honest thats what keeps me going, thats what I lean on when I'm worried.

My best friend and I made up which, I guess, was really the plan. I am more thankful for her company than I was before so, maybe, that was what I was supposed to learn, but I don't know.

I found the song I'm singing for the revival and I've practiced it some so far but I'm really worried that I'll end up bombing it. I mean, its a hard song to sing. And I guess I'm lacking the confidence to pull it off, so I just have to remember its about God and put some hope into it. You know?

I haven't read my bible much lately which I'm not proud of, but I'll deffinetly have to work on that more. I am however constantly praying and talking to God. I like that. Having someone to always talk to, someone who knows what your about to say before you do. Its lovely.

Second semester starts on tuesday which I'm excited for. I can't wait to have new classes and a new chance. I hope that I meet nice people since I don't have many friends at Stratford that would be nice. I really hope I can bring up my grades, get new friends, stay in contact with God, and continue my friendships with my old friends. I think its possible, especially with God. I think that he has been taking care of me for so long, with out me even knowing it. which, is beyond amazing. Which reminds me --- Go look at this skit/drama its pretty dandy and it reflects a lot of what I mean, God is there even when you don't realize it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7Bkr3wBXdU&feature=related
The quality isn't that great, and it starts out pretty slowly, but its amazing.
The fact that even when we think we're alone, that everything is going wrong, Gods there.
And he is helping us, we wouldn't be here without him, and everytime we think 'life sucks so much' and that 'it couldn't get any worse'... it could. Because daily he saves us.
It just, amazes me.

I don't know what I wan't to do with my life.
Beyond pretty much anything in my life, I love to write and create things. I would love to be a writer, I'm not thinking unrealistically and saying that 'I'll be a writer when I grow up'... because I know with todays economy thats pretty much, not happening. Not saying I'm going to let the economy control what I do in my life. I'm just saying, I wan't to be realistic for my future, I'm so afraid that I'll get out there and have absolutely no experience doing anything and I'll just crumble. I know God will take care of me, but I really can't help but having that fear. I also really enjoy teaching, but, It seems everyone is resorting to being teachers, and like, really? The only thing I'd be qualified to teach is English, though, that would be nice. I also really enjoy my religion, and God and everything, and I heard they have scholarships for that kind of thing, I would love to study stuff like that, and possibly beceome a youth pastor. But ... I guess it is all up to God and I just have to put faith in him, while at the same time working on myself and future too, in his image.


Well. I have nothing much to discuss, but I'll continue to keep you posted and hopefully I can write more often. :] thankyou for reading.